Tuesday, April 22, 2008
something flash to my mind . rmb i first saw him was at central kopitiam . and the first time i call him was at pasir ris inter . really love him alot . althou he say he's not a good boyfriend, but for the past 11th months . he really took good care of me .
one night, he had a very bad toothache . the pain made him cry . i cant do anything . but keep feeding him ice . searching in the net to look for a 24-hour dental . found it . but the extraction fee was too high . but no choice . he bear the pain till next day
next day, we went to look for dental clinic . but dat day was a public holiday . hardly a dental clinic is open . so no choice again . hospital is the best solution to stop pain .
been thru with him thick and thin . till now, althou we broke off for almost 3months . but the love was still so strong . misses him all night . only can take a look at those photos we took last time . might cry at times . but i told myself to be strong and forget everything about him . every weekend i will go pub and drink till drunk without fail . trying to be happy is what i can eva do now .
he's now in camp . wanted to send him off . but i know he and his family wont want me to do dat . msg him at times to ask him takecare . no reply . feeling kinda sad . but there's nothing i can eva do . looking at his friendster . he's very happy with his current girlfirend . and he's very sad to leave his girlfriend to serve army .
feel like to take a peep at him when he book out . but i guess doing all these is really silly . as a friend wanted to ask him out for dinner or something when he book out . but i know he's going to reject it for sure . cus . he already miss his girlfriend so much . of cus he want to spend more time with her before he book in . hai ~
althou now i have a boyfriend . a boyfriend who cant gave me love, care and concern as much as him . to say dat, no one can eva replace him in my heart . really no one .
I LOVE TIMOTHY THAM ZHI YUAN ! i know you will come back ! i know all these is my own wish . i balme no one . but me being stupid and silly . and i know im lying to myself . even thou i know there's no chance of getting back . ='(
waiting . waiting . waiting .
-LynLyn-
Thursday, April 3, 2008
huh .. its been long since i blog .. shall blog a little about my new baby dumb boyfriend ..
the first impression he gave me .. is his a damn hongster .. and a flirt .. likes to find fling .. when we got togather, both of us is in a blur blur state .. not knowing why we were togather in the first place .. the first few days of our relationship wasnt dat good .. we quarrel almost everyday .. and problem lies with me .. i always attitude him .. i dont dare to love him so much .. cus im scared to be hurt again .. althou he treat me very good .. but still i dont feel him as my boyfriend .. he always MIA, which i hate it alot .. whatever i do he also allow me .. make it simple is he dont give a fcuk about me ..
but after today i realise .. he did this b'cus he thou im a hongster too ? or maybe he thou of giving me so much freedom i will feel happy and dats what i want .. but i dont like it .. i feel dat giving me so much freedom is like my single life .. so whats the point of having a boyfriend ..
but i guess everything got to change .. haaa .. he still gets angry when other stupid guys msg or call me .. LOLs .. finally he got some feeling .. i thou he's feeling is cold .. perhaps im unlike other girls .. who likes to get more freedom from their boyfriend .. i wan my boyfriend to control me in certain thing .. so dat i wont get out of hand .. hope, he wont MIA again and he wont give me stupid attitude to me anymore .. all i want is love, care and protect .. em .. and also UNDERSTANDING .. but he's understanding luh .. haaaa .. loves gene .. :)